Run away, run away
What does one do when one is running and comes face to face with a wall? Turn and run in the other direction. Face to face with a boulder? Run around it. Friend in need? ... -stop- ...
i have to learn to stop running away from hostility, no matter how much like a blank wall it seems. I look back now and think, maybe i lost a friend because i was afraid of the hostility she showed once. just once and i left it. i admit, i didn't contact her again and i don't know if things could've been any different. if i could have salvaged a drifting friendship. i know, it takes two to tango, it takes two for a handshake, a conversation, a friendship. if she wanted to continue our friendship she might've called me but, sometimes it doesn't work that way.
I'm not looking back and regretting the past but, i think i should've learnt from that. hostility or frigidness doesn't mean that a friendship is over, so, gotta stop running away, take a deep breath and start walking. or maybe i should just run into it...! itai.. >_<"